So, I spent my younger life learning all about multiple personality disorder, now known as dissociative identity disorder, because I was almost certain I wasn't always me. In many ways, I fit the criteria perfectly:
However, I lacked one most necessary component-suggestibility. Suggestibility is what makes certain people susceptible to hypnosis and I am one of those who is impervious to hypnosis.
Fast forward 20-something years...after a laundry list of diagnoses, I settled on intermittent depression, PTSD, and dissociative tendencies. I call my dissociative episodes "slivers" - where slivers of my personality take over the driver's seat when everything becomes too much for the whole me to handle.
You may be asking what is the relevance of all this? I am getting to that, I promise, but for now I need to stop. I will pick up later and fill you in on the real purpose of this story...I PROMISE!
* sadistic sexual abuse at a very young age-check
* above average intelligence-check
* imaginative and creative-check
* above average intelligence-check
* imaginative and creative-check
However, I lacked one most necessary component-suggestibility. Suggestibility is what makes certain people susceptible to hypnosis and I am one of those who is impervious to hypnosis.
Fast forward 20-something years...after a laundry list of diagnoses, I settled on intermittent depression, PTSD, and dissociative tendencies. I call my dissociative episodes "slivers" - where slivers of my personality take over the driver's seat when everything becomes too much for the whole me to handle.
You may be asking what is the relevance of all this? I am getting to that, I promise, but for now I need to stop. I will pick up later and fill you in on the real purpose of this story...I PROMISE!
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